When you know...

That death will come knocking soon, very soon, will you still take a chance at love?

You are young and want to feel the many moments with that special someone. You met her and you know that she is the one. But you know you are going to die soon. Will you still want to fall in love and experience it? Will it be okay to put her through a heart break when you leave for the next great adventure?

And if you don't, will you be denying the very thing which makes life worth it? The one thing which defines this world and you as human. Love. The passion, the obsession, the thrills, the ups and downs that make up life.

What's the choice? What's the choice?

We as human beings crave for love. At first it's from our parents and siblings. But as we grow, we take this love for granted. We want something else. We need the love of a person who we never knew. Who we can grow old with.

A few years down the road, this same love, loses its potency. And we seek the love of our children. Everytime they smile, we feel that all those pains are worth it. But as the children grow old, they are less and less dependent on the parents and they seek to find their own partners. The parents become grand parents and the craving for new love continues.

But my question is this; is it possible to find that one person whose love will carry you for as long as you live? That one person who whenever you see will make you feel as if you are the luckiest person in the world, becuase you have her love. The only love you'll ever need...

A reason Love is to act, to do, to live
For somebody else than you.

Experiencing it everyone does,
but understanding only some do.

Keeping nothing a secret is what love is.
Game it isn't, but life it is.

Time it doesn't need,
but understanding it does.

An expression "where ever you go, I'm there" is
what it's all about.

Powerful it is, that even
death is obsessed by it.

Dated
08/02/99

The non-existence of the Present.

Where is this "present" world? Is it this moment? Now it's the past. Is it the next moment? But that's the future. Oh no wait. It's the present. Hang on... It's the past...

Where do we live? The probable present? The past? The future?

Aren't we living in a world which is between the future and the past? Aren't we living in that moment? That single moment where we make a decision with the past as the guide and the future as the destination.

A good thought to ponder... Could this be a concept for something big???

I feel that Love is the single most important thing in life. In my opinion the cause of all kinds of problems (guilt, lust, pain, un-satisfaction, greed…) is due to simple lack of love. Youngsters who get into relationships just for sex. Adults who choose to cheat or divorce. Kids who grow up without knowing the meaning of true love and in turn desperate to find it. It’s nothing but a vicious cycle.

I had this wierd dream the other day. I was standing on top of a hill and below me is a valley covered with red dust.

In the middle of the valley is a circle formed by uneven rocks. In the center of this circle stood a female child. As a dark shadow swooped over her, I took off in a sprint. The shadow reached her and is about to envelope her, when I jumped over the rocks toward the child. And then -

I woke up. What does this dream mean?